sassicat31

Sometimes i think everyone would be better off if i just ended it. ya know? i have no reason to live. i have no purpose. i fail everyone that loves me. i have failed my best friend. she and i used to be so close. we had the most amazing summers together. butit seems like this year...school ruined everything. i know ive lost her for good. and i completely dont blame her. shes better off without me and my shit. i was never a true friend to her. i never treated her the way she deserved to be treated. but i always thought that no matter how bad our fights were, we'd never let each other go. but i guess i was wrong. she's the only one thats rea

have you ever felt like your life should be made into a book? god knows i have. just everything ive gone through during my teens would be enough to start a novel. its rediculous. since the beginning of 2009 ive been to approximately 30 funerals and/or gathering of friends of people i actually know(and yes ive been to some for just random people). most of those funerals were for my friends that have died. i even went to one yesterday. my friend was shot and killed. he was 18 and killed by a gang from his neighborhood. i miss him to much..its terrible. a triangle of drama is happening between me, mike, and hailey. i think haileys bipolar, b

it sucks when life gets confusing cuz all it does is make you even more confused and depressed. i seriously dont think anything could get any worse. for starters..drugs have become an influence on my life..mostly weed. im trying to stop..but i only smoke it when im around 2 of my friends..which isnt very often. and honestly it does make things better. it puts me in a better mood and makes all my problems seem so microscopic. plus theres the fact that ive started smoking cigarettes as well. i have turned into the person i vowed i would never be. i have been dating this one guy since june and the only reason we havent broken up officially yet